Stressed out!

Well the stress has hit us pretty hard. We are looking into buying a house in this wonderful housing market we are in right now. Well, it's wonderful for us, the buyer. We will not be able to do anything until at least October but we are keeping our heads held high. With Jeremy having his own business we have to prove a steady income for at least 2 years blah blah. So we are just doing what we can.

On top of this Jeremy is trying to decide where to go with his schooling. He was going to be a teacher, and Spanish is the only class he had left to be able to graduate but the language is hard to learn so he is a bit scared. He is thinking now that he'd like to be a counselor. Hmm, that means he has to have his Masters Degree...which means another year and half of schooling. Oh wow! I was beginning to see the light. Now I'm wondering if there is a light or even an end to this tunnel we are in.

For those of you I haven't told yet...I am having my own little "issues". We are expecting another baby. My estimated due date is March 2011. We found out about 2 weeks ago. The idea of another baby is finally sinking in a little more and it's growing on me a little. At first I was very scared and worried. And with responses I got from some very important people made me think I can't do it. I feel like having 4 kids is a daily struggle what is 5 kids going to be like? But I have also had many people tell me that everything will be fine and I am a good mother and things will work out, but I still have my doubts. I feel like I need to share this story with you guys...

When I was getting ready to have Jillian a year ago the doctor asked me since I was having a c-section if I wanted him to just tie my tubes in the process. I thought hard about it and I told the doctor I am not sure but we were thinking towards yes. He told me if I am not 100% sure that I am done having kids then not to do it. So we weren't 100% sure so we decided against it. I had a feeling that there is one more little girl out there for me. Well, when I found out that I am pregnant I thought for sure this has got to be that little girl that is still waiting for me. Oh I hope this is the girl. I will let you know when I find out. :)

Well, I think that will do it for today. I hope everyone is well. Please leave comments and let us know how things are going for you. Love ya all.

Toby Keith Concert

I won tickets on the radio last week for the Toby Keith concert. The concert was last night. I was so excited for a FREE date with just Jeremy and I. Turns out Jeremy bummed out on me. He isn't really a fan of country music but I told him he had to go with me anyway. Long story short and lots of feelings left out of the story I ended up taking my mom. She was originally going to be our babysitter for the night, so I knew she didn't have any other plans. We had a great time. I actually enjoyed Trace Adkins better than Toby Keith. Here are a few pictures from the concert.

Trace Adkins

Trace again

Toby Keith when he first came on stage.

Toby Keith doin' his thing.

These guys were my entertainment for the night. They are the back up singers and instrument players. They were definately havin' a good time. They were dancing and playin around. They were very entertaining.

On our way back to the car we tried to take a short cut around the outside of the building instead of the inside where all the people were. Well we ran into all the trucks for the singers. We had to go around all the trucks, but we got a great memory from it. Thanks mom for going with me. I had a blast!

Jillian's 1st birthday

Jillian's first birthday was a blast. We waited until 6:30pm to have the party so that everyone could be here for it. Some family members were working. But then we ended up missing some other family memebers. Sorry everyone. It's so hard to work with everyone's schedules. Thanks for understanding.

Anyways, we spent the day just having a good time together playing on the trampoline and playing with Jillian's toy from us. Then finally everyone starting to show up for the party. We had a great time opening presents and having cake. We got her a carebear cake. She loved the cake and when we were done she loved playing with the little carebears that were on top of the cake.

We put the sprinkler on the trampoline to cool everyone off while we waited for the birthday party time. In this picture Daisha is doing a flip.

A group picture on the wet trampoline.

Jillian wanting so badly to get into her birthday cake.

"Finally I get to have my cake. But what is that thing glowing on the top of it?" Jeremy had to help her blow out the candle.

Oh Yum my first cake. And the pink stained EVERYTHING!

Finally Pictures of 4th of July in McCall

Bryton in the sand

Tucker in the sand

Daisha playing in the water

Byton saw the bewie in the lake and said "can we go touch the basketballs?" It was very cold and windy that day. So we saw some sitting on land and let him touch them.

Tucker, Daisha and Bryton on the bears in the middle of McCall.

We have to have a campfire if we are in the mountains. We had smores. I do not like my clothes smelling like fire so I tired to wrap up in a blanket, but it didn't work too well. I ended up having Jeremy buy me a new hoodie since mine stunk after the fire and it was the only one I brought. And I definatley needed one. It was cold in the mountains.

Jeremy on the 4 wheeler. I had to take over driving after not very long because I wanted to go FAST.

Bryton Rob and Tucker on the 4 wheeler. The boys would not let anyone else ride with Rob. He is their favorite.

The girl team...Jillian me and Daisha. Jillian liked the 4 wheeler. I couldn't believe it! She must be my girl. :)

After a long day of 4 wheeling we had to relax in the hot tub. Jillian loved it!

We had to run to the store and get some ice cream. We were just in the mood for some. Jillian had her own cone for the first time. She loved it. Boy she sure is growing up fast.

We went in the hot tub every day we were there so I thought we had better had a family picture.

Waiting for the fireworks to start. What beautiful scenery that is!

I tried to get some good pictures of the fireworks with the lake in the picture. Don't think I did so well but here's a couple of them.

Happy Birthday America!

Jillian's first fireworks. She loved them. All of them. Here she is doing her "ooo" face.

4th of July fun in the mountains

We are in McCall for the 4th of July. We are having so much fun! We have been just enjoying the fresh air up here. Sheree and Rob are here too and they brought up their 4 wheelers, so we went 4 wheeling with them. I want one of those! That will be our next investment. :) They are so much fun! I will have to post pictures when we get home because the memory card isn't the right size for the lap top. Anyways, I will post pictures later.

The kids are a lot of work not in their own environment, but it's been worth it. The fireworks are tonight and I am very anxious to see the kids' expressions when they light them off. Well, I told everyone I would try to stay on top of posting on here, so here's a post and check back in a couple days for pictures.